Progress?

With the end of phase one complete I weighed myself and took measurements to compare with my measurements 4 weeks ago. My weight loss is a measly half pound but it appears I've lost an inch all the way around. The inches lost are more important than the weight since it clearly shows I'm building muscle (muscle weighs more than fat but takes up less space). So while this is all a positive outcome I just don't see it. My pants are still tight and every pair seems to give me a muffin top. This is so frustrating for me since I've never gained weight in my middle area. I've always been a person who gains weight in the butt and thighs and maintains a flat stomach. It's strange that I'm now packing it on in the midsection. Maybe this is what 40 does to you?

I am no expert by any means but I'm convinced that p90x just does not include enough cardio. At least it doesn't seem to be enough cardio for me. Don't get me wrong, what cardio it does have is killer but it's just not enough for this cardio junkie. With an hour and a half invested in p90 each day it's hard to fit much else in but this week I managed to squeeze in two runs. Next week my goal is three. The runs weren't easy but felt great! If anything, running works wonders for my mental health and that's enough reason to add it back in. Truth be told I'm hoping that it rids me of this muffin top as well. I'm thinking that maybe my body is just as addicted to the running as my mind is and it's rebelling by making me suffer with a muffin top. "Hey Body...You Win..I will run and I will love it..you don't have to tell me twice!"

Speaking of progress, after a potty train fail over a month ago Logan is trained. She is such a strong willed little thing. This time it was her idea to try again and wouldn't you know it...success. I'm convinced that because it was our idea the first time she just wasn't interested. Can I tell you just how happy this Mommy is to be done with diapers for good? I'm so proud of my youngest little gal. How do they grow up so fast?

Pushing Through It

Just entered the "recovery week" at the end of the first phase of p90x. If this is what Tony Horton considers recovery I think he needs his head checked! At the end of this week (Saturday) it will be 4 weeks...it feels like 4 years! I miss running!!

 I'd like to try to work some running back in but with most workouts being 90 minutes and the workouts being 6 days a week, I'm finding it hard to find time for much else. I intend on running The Broad Street run in May so I will have to start fitting in some runs soon. So far there is not much cardio at all in p90x and I feel like that's why I'm not really noticing any results. I suppose I feel a little stronger and some parts of me look a little more muscular but my middle is suffering. Lately every pair of pants I put on give me a total muffin top. I am not used to this. I've never been the muffin top type...my middle is just not usually where I put on weight. At the end of this 1st phase (Saturday) I intend on taking measurements to compare with my before measurements so I suppose I will see then if there is any difference. I have dropped a couple pounds but nothing to speak of.

My eating has mostly gone back to normal with my 80/20 mentality of eating really well 80% of the time and indulging 20%. This instead of my 80% indulgence and 20% healthy eating that I had fallen into over the recent holidays and birthdays. Sometimes I think not eating meat can be worse for my waistline because often when you eat out either because you want to or have to, there just aren't very many vegetarian choices. The lack of appealing veg options usually leads to eating a big plate of fries or cheese quesidillas. Don't worry, I still heart you PJ's and your famous fries and Guiness specials!

The other thing I'm finding very hard about sticking with this is the fact that I have to work out at home. I am a social butterfly and not seeing my "gym buddies" is getting to me. Also, I have to set Logan up with a show and a snack while I'm working out and that never lasts. I'm constantly having to hit the pause button to deal with her latest need. I miss dropping her off at kids club and having that hour to hour and a half to focus on myself.

My positive attitude is dwindling but worry not, I'm not giving up....yet.

Remember Me?

Sometimes you need to to take a break from being Mom and Dad and spend a little time just being you! Lest you forget who YOU are.

That is exactly what the husband and I did last night. We packed up the car with pretty much everything the girls own and took a 40 minute drive to drop of #1,2 AND 3. Yes, my brother and his fiancé were brave enough to take on #3 OVERNIGHT (she has a bit of a reputation)!

We then made the 40 minute return drive home and met up with friends to take the train into the city. We had a great time and even made it back home by midnight. It felt great to just be Bobbie and Roy for the night but coming home to an empty house, OUR empty house, felt strange. Peeking in to the kids rooms and seeing empty beds gave me a little ache in my heart, but the ache suspiciously disappeared when I realized no one would be waking me at 7!

Being a Mom is the best job in the world, the dream job I've always wanted...but being Bobbie is what I do best!